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Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

It's been an emotional journey. And baby K isn't even born yet! So many questions. So much joy. So much pain. Most importantly, we have baby K. She's the most precious little thing in the world to us. Truly a gift from God.

Imagine how much more A had to go through these last few months! If I thought it was tough for me, I cannot even begin to imagine how much more she has gone through. It must have been a terrible emotional roller coaster for her. I only wish I did more for her these last few months. Most importantly, we have baby K. She's the most precious little thing in the world to us. Truly a gift from God.

Here's a poem from Heather Peterson, a tribute to baby K's two siblings:

Little One's Journey
"It's time to go." He told his little one.
"But wait, I'm not done!" A tiny voice replied.
"The voice I hear each day is filled with such love, Doesn't she want me to stay?"
"She will understand." He said, reaching out his hand.
"How?" The little voice said questioning. "Have you told her of what you have planned?"
"She knows I love her" He said with a gentle smile.
"She realized she would only have you for just a little while."
"Then you did tell her of your plans?"
"Yes, in her heart she knows you are off to a better land."
"Will she miss me?" The little voice said sadly.
"She will miss you very much." He said as a tear zigzagged down his face.
"Then I won't go, I'll stay right here." The little one said boldly.
"I like it here, it's so warm and cozy."
"But I have plans for you." He said, reaching out his hand.
"What kind of plans?" The little one said, trying to understand.
"I'm going to take you to a wonderful land.
You will have others to play with.
Young one's just like you.
Everywhere there is light,and the sky is always blue."
"I don't want to leave her alone and sad." The little one said reaching for his hand.
"You won't leave her alone." He said.
"For I am giving you wings, So you can see her each night to tuck her into bed."
" I will get to sing her lull-a-bye's and tell her I love her and she will hear all I've said?"
The little one said hopefully.
He smiled. "She will know you are always there.
In her heart. She knows you will always care.
"The little one sat pondering, wondering what to do.
Leaving this place, and going somewhere new?
Wings will bring me back, any time I choose.
He thought I must leave her, So guess I'm on my way.
I will come back often and tell her that I'm okay.
She will always feel me deep within her heart,
I will leave my imprint upon her soul,
And she and I will never part.
The little one turned to him and said:
"I'm ready to go with you now, Your words have helped me so.
I know she will love me even though I have to go.
Just one more question before I leave -
This place we are going, Does it have a name?
Is it as wonderful as it seems?"
"Yes" he said."It's called Heaven, and it's a special place to go.
A place to rest, a place for love, and also, a place to grow.
So come my child we're on a quest, I'll take you home where you can rest.
Please reach for me and take my hand, I'll lead you to my promise land."

Most importantly, we have baby K. She's the most precious little thing in the world to us. Truly a gift from God.